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JFC I’m terrible at this blogging thing

So I updated my other blog, Blind Girl Runs, with a little life update but then remembered I had this here blog as well sooooo UPDATE: After finding a job in a new field in January and then being told my position is being eliminated and my last day at R55 will be July 31st, I’m feeling very out of sorts. I want to have flexibility in my work, I want to be able to take care of my kids, my self, my life AND work and earn enough money to pay for things like housing, food, clothes, vacation (because let’s be real, traveling and time off IS SUPER FUCKING IMPORTANT to the quality of life.) But HOW do I do this? Of course, there are plenty of ways to work from home or work remote or freelance or or or. Yes, I know this and I know plenty of folks who hustle and create the life they want. And I know I can realistically do the same. But taking that step is a little terrifying. I’ve always worked full-time and had steady paychecks with all the perks and benefits of that. So now I’m in spot where I have, maybe, an opportunity to change things up. So I’m looking at part-time work for some steady income and then trying to find a way to bring in other money. Maybe I can write about human resources and how to effectively manage teams, keep talent, grow leaders within your organization, recruit the right people. Or this one is super important: how to not be dicks to your millennial and sooner than you realize, gen Z, workforce, since, you know, they make up the majority of your workforce! (Yup, that’s big pet peeve of mine.)

My BF always tells me to just write. Write and post shit and see what works. And he’s right. Just write. so I’ve gotta figure out what to do with these blogs/websites. Do I (very poorly) try to write in both or do I throw all my effort into Blind Girl Runs and try to make that a thing? But I want to write about more than just running stuff. Like, I want to write about the business of working with people (HR), and also my life and living with RP (hybrid of monybalony and blindgirlruns) SO do I ditch this site and combine it with BGR and then also create a new more professional business-y type site? Or should I just combine these two sites and write about whatever the hell I want to write about and then if some of the HR type posts start gaining attention or I gain more confidence in my writing ability, go from there?

Talk to me interent!

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And look, there goes a whole month…

Quick recap,  I ran a half marathon in Duluth, hung out with an old friend and some new friends.  I went to a work party in Chicago and made the most of my 24 hours in that beautiful city.

My kids are great,  my work is great.  I feel great. 

Summer is delicious. 


travel more

I want to travel more and I’m making it happen!

First, in February over Valentine’s Day weekend, my longtime BFF and I are heading to Mexico for 5 lovely not winter days!

Then at the end of March, 4 of my BFF’s (aka the Prince Crew) and myself will be heading to Vegas for a weekend of insane craziness.

CAN NOT WAIT

We get one shot at this life and I am determined to have as much fun as I can. This is it people, we have to get out there and actually DO all the things we want to. Otherwise, we’ll just be going through the motions, being miserable until we are dead. I don’t want a life like that. No thank you.


new year

Here we are, at the end of a year again. My mom was so right when she would tell me that time moves so much faster the older you get. 2013 was definitely a year of change, self-discovery and growth. My partner of ten years moved out, we made the transition from one house for our kids to two houses and split time with each parent. We tried to make this transition as smooth as possible for our kids with a minimal amount of stress and they seem to have weathered the change well but I guess we’ll see in the years to come. After quitting smoking in December 2012, I started running at the Metrodome in January and by October, I ran my first half marathon. That’s 13.1 miles people. I’m damn proud of myself. Running has taught me so much about myself, but the most important thing I’ve learned from running is that I can do anything I set my mind to. Yes, yes, most of us grow up hearing this idea and being told it by parents, teachers, and mentors but it’s so amazing when you, yourself, actually figure that shit out! I also connected and reconnected with a handful of wonderful ladies who just make my world a much better place. I traveled and had adventures, got tattooed three times, saw some great live music (PRINCE!), ate a lot of great food, camped, drank, had good conversation and few bad conversations. Opened myself up to my emotions, cried a lot, laughed a lot and loved a lot.

To cap this amazing year off, tomorrow is a Major Life Change. I’ll write all about it tomorrow but just know, there is one more amazing (and maybe a bit terrifying) thing that will happen in 2013.

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I don’t do New Year’s Resolutions as I feel they tend to not really last so instead, I focus on goals. Some of my goals carry on from year to year until I can complete them, like Getting Out Of Debt, it feels like that one will last forever. But, I am making progress on that goal, my credit is great and my debt is very manageable. I will keep working on managing my debt, paying it down, moving forward and being more responsible with my money. I will, of course, keep running with the intention of running the Twin Cities Marathon in October. Baring any injuries, this will happen!

What I really really want to get a handle on is parenting my kids better. I had such a bad mommy moment yesterday during bath time, I wanted to cry after I apologized to my kids for losing it. ugh. It was horrible and frustrating and just not good. My poor kids deserve better than a screaming mommy monster when I’m feeling stressed. I take it out on them forgetting that they are just little kids with little kid brains and hearts and how scary it is when an adult and especially their mom, is yelling at them. So I guess I can call this goal the Stop Yelling At My Kids goal. (Unless they are in danger, then I’ll yell like crazy.) I feel like in this is something very important for me to get a handle on since it will effect the girls for the rest of their lives, how they parent, how they talk to themselves, how they interact with each other. No one deserves to be yelled at, yet we do it to kids all the time. They don’t deserve it either. They don’t deserve to be made to feel horrible or less than.

I want to live this year full of love and compassion. Here’s the a great 2014! *cheers*


vacation going so great!

This time off of work has been wonderful and I still have 4 days left! I’ve been getting outside, running, biking, indoor rock climbing. it’s been a blast.

I get my girls tomorrow and I think we’ll do some outdoor water stuff, minnehaha falls, lake calhoun and the like. and it actually feels like summer!

 


three updates in a row!

I still wanna run away from everything, start over in some new town but because it’s not just me, I’m forcing myself to be still. it’s so fucking hard. but i’m doing it. also, I’m happy to report, my hair is still in long form. and a natural looking color although, my roots could use some help ๐Ÿ˜‰

I am getting tattooed like a crazy fool. but that’s okay. better than running away. and running for excercise seems to help.

Also, I have some amazing friends that keep me ย grounded and talk me off the ledge.

and the being alone thing, well, i do still struggle with that at times. but i don’t think i’m being destructive so i’m just going with it, if I need to hang out with friends on my home alone nights, then so be it.

I need someone tall to change a lightbulb for me ๐Ÿ˜‰

I’ve been immersing myself in music. not much tv watching. a total reversal. and I’m loving it.

summer is here. and then will be gone.

did i mention that i love to run? hah!

i love my friends

i love my kids

i love myself ๐Ÿ™‚ i wrote up a “Harmony’s roadmap to a better life” thing today. I scold myself, encourage myself..it probably sounds like i’ve gone crazy (or crazier) but it felt great to write out a plan. i will have an amazing life. and it will be because i made it happen. it won’t happen tomorrow and that’s okay. it will happen. in a two years. I’ll probably be legally blind by then so that’s when things will have to be well underway.


um so the guitar thing…

hah! just was re-reading through some of my posts here. so yeah, that guitar thing, haven’t picked it up since that day! I should just resign myself to the fact that I’ll never teach myself to play!

I am still running though and kicking ass! I’m ready for my first 5k in two weeks from tomorrow. like i’m going to run this thing and it’ll be NO problem at all. I’m definitely doing a 10k this fall. I wish I could run every damn day. EVERY DAMN DAY!

it feels so wonderful

I have my breath figured out so now I feel like I can run forever, or at least until I collapse due to muscle failure ๐Ÿ˜‰

When I have to run at the gym, I’m starting to work on my pace. I’ll run two miles and set the pace to under 9 minutes/mile. I’m hoping that will help me be faster when I’m running outside.

goal before the snow flies is to find a used treadmill for the house.

next summer I want to do a bunch of 5ks all over the great state of Minnesota. I think that’d be so fun. I’d love to take the girls with me but would need to find a partner in crime to travel with me and help with the girls while I’m running. maybe I can aim for two a month, if I can work it out with my schedule at work, who knows what that’ll look like then.

one of these days, I’m buying this domain name LOL