I still wanna run away from everything, start over in some new town but because it’s not just me, I’m forcing myself to be still. it’s so fucking hard. but i’m doing it. also, I’m happy to report, my hair is still in long form. and a natural looking color although, my roots could use some help 😉
I am getting tattooed like a crazy fool. but that’s okay. better than running away. and running for excercise seems to help.
Also, I have some amazing friends that keep me grounded and talk me off the ledge.
and the being alone thing, well, i do still struggle with that at times. but i don’t think i’m being destructive so i’m just going with it, if I need to hang out with friends on my home alone nights, then so be it.
I need someone tall to change a lightbulb for me 😉
I’ve been immersing myself in music. not much tv watching. a total reversal. and I’m loving it.
summer is here. and then will be gone.
did i mention that i love to run? hah!
i love my friends
i love my kids
i love myself 🙂 i wrote up a “Harmony’s roadmap to a better life” thing today. I scold myself, encourage myself..it probably sounds like i’ve gone crazy (or crazier) but it felt great to write out a plan. i will have an amazing life. and it will be because i made it happen. it won’t happen tomorrow and that’s okay. it will happen. in a two years. I’ll probably be legally blind by then so that’s when things will have to be well underway.