Category Archives: home life

JFC I’m terrible at this blogging thing

So I updated my other blog, Blind Girl Runs, with a little life update but then remembered I had this here blog as well sooooo UPDATE: After finding a job in a new field in January and then being told my position is being eliminated and my last day at R55 will be July 31st, I’m feeling very out of sorts. I want to have flexibility in my work, I want to be able to take care of my kids, my self, my life AND work and earn enough money to pay for things like housing, food, clothes, vacation (because let’s be real, traveling and time off IS SUPER FUCKING IMPORTANT to the quality of life.) But HOW do I do this? Of course, there are plenty of ways to work from home or work remote or freelance or or or. Yes, I know this and I know plenty of folks who hustle and create the life they want. And I know I can realistically do the same. But taking that step is a little terrifying. I’ve always worked full-time and had steady paychecks with all the perks and benefits of that. So now I’m in spot where I have, maybe, an opportunity to change things up. So I’m looking at part-time work for some steady income and then trying to find a way to bring in other money. Maybe I can write about human resources and how to effectively manage teams, keep talent, grow leaders within your organization, recruit the right people. Or this one is super important: how to not be dicks to your millennial and sooner than you realize, gen Z, workforce, since, you know, they make up the majority of your workforce! (Yup, that’s big pet peeve of mine.)

My BF always tells me to just write. Write and post shit and see what works. And he’s right. Just write. so I’ve gotta figure out what to do with these blogs/websites. Do I (very poorly) try to write in both or do I throw all my effort into Blind Girl Runs and try to make that a thing? But I want to write about more than just running stuff. Like, I want to write about the business of working with people (HR), and also my life and living with RP (hybrid of monybalony and blindgirlruns) SO do I ditch this site and combine it with BGR and then also create a new more professional business-y type site? Or should I just combine these two sites and write about whatever the hell I want to write about and then if some of the HR type posts start gaining attention or I gain more confidence in my writing ability, go from there?

Talk to me interent!


i’m hilarious

so much for weekly writing! HAH!

well not much has changed. we all turned a year older. kids are back in school. summer was short but fun. spring break was a trip to the ocean. winter was winter. and now we’re rolling into another long winter. holidays are coming. the days are growing shorter and the nights longer. we’ve had snow already. i’ve busted out the fleece and flannel lined pants and we all love our winter gear.

maybe this will be the year. maybe. maybe i’ll get my shit together and write in this freaking thing. maybe.


today is a day

Today, I’m prepping to take my nine year old in for dental work but because she will not tolerate a regular cleaning (and never has in her little life) much less x-rays or fillings, she’s going to the hospital and needs to have anesthesia so they can get her teeth in order. I’m a little on edge about the whole thing but I know she’s in good hands and that logically, anesthesia is safe and she’s in more danger ┬áduring the car ride to the hospital. But the mama worrier brain can’t help it and is kicking up some extra worry for today. So I’ll drink too much coffee and have too much nervous energy.

The nurse told me they have a sedative they can give to her if she’s anxious right away and I’m thinking, can I get one too? haha. I’m happy we have a great hospital to go to that caters to my kiddo’s needs and will help to ensure she’s not terrified of doctors and dentists in the future. My kid struggles with words at times and I’m often left to guess how to help her, I’ve gotten pretty good at reading her and she’s gotten better at communicating in her own way what she needs. But it’s an added layer to normal parenting stress.

Wish us luck for a low stress couple of days xox


and look! there goes a whole year and then some!

so here we are, fall 2015. Things are great. I met a great man who has joined my little family. We are planning and organizing and doing all the things. Love is a beautiful thing!

The kiddos are good, the start of the school year was a bit rough but we seem to be in a good groove for now.

I’m gonna strive to write in this thing a few times a week. even if it’s just shit stuff. I need to get back in the habit. I’ve started reading again so now it’s time to get on the writing train.

I think when I find interesting shit on the web, instead of just straight up sharing it through FB, I’ll share through here and then share this to FB. Because I have lots to say. But I tend to say it on FB.

Make new habits.


And look, there goes a whole month…

Quick recap,  I ran a half marathon in Duluth, hung out with an old friend and some new friends.  I went to a work party in Chicago and made the most of my 24 hours in that beautiful city.

My kids are great,  my work is great.  I feel great. 

Summer is delicious. 


an experiment

So here I am, in my late thirties with acne. I’ve never ever had great skin but I always figured it would get better as I got older. Well, I’m older now and it’s not any better. Sure, after I quit smoking, things cleared up a bit but not a ton. I don’t have horrible horrible acne with cysts and the like but I do get one or two big lovely zits a month with scores of smaller zits that are just always there, mostly along my jaw line and my cheeks. SO! I’m going to try something which I’ve resisted for years, I’m going dairy free for thirty days to see what happens. I’m not worried about milk or ice cream, there are a great alternatives out there for those things but cheese, oh man, cheese is going to be so difficult. I just love cheese so much. I did take before pics and will not be posting those, yet. If there is improvement, I will post the before and after to show the difference.


it’s fucking cold. that is all. brrrrrr


reminders

 

This:

2014

and this:

2014 2


December 30, 2013

That is the date I became a first time homeowner AND landlord! Yesterday, I received my first rent checks from my downstairs tenants. Here’s to a happy and prosperous 2014!


new year

Here we are, at the end of a year again. My mom was so right when she would tell me that time moves so much faster the older you get. 2013 was definitely a year of change, self-discovery and growth. My partner of ten years moved out, we made the transition from one house for our kids to two houses and split time with each parent. We tried to make this transition as smooth as possible for our kids with a minimal amount of stress and they seem to have weathered the change well but I guess we’ll see in the years to come. After quitting smoking in December 2012, I started running at the Metrodome in January and by October, I ran my first half marathon. That’s 13.1 miles people. I’m damn proud of myself. Running has taught me so much about myself, but the most important thing I’ve learned from running is that I can do anything I set my mind to. Yes, yes, most of us grow up hearing this idea and being told it by parents, teachers, and mentors but it’s so amazing when you, yourself, actually figure that shit out! I also connected and reconnected with a handful of wonderful ladies who just make my world a much better place. I traveled and had adventures, got tattooed three times, saw some great live music (PRINCE!), ate a lot of great food, camped, drank, had good conversation and few bad conversations. Opened myself up to my emotions, cried a lot, laughed a lot and loved a lot.

To cap this amazing year off, tomorrow is a Major Life Change. I’ll write all about it tomorrow but just know, there is one more amazing (and maybe a bit terrifying) thing that will happen in 2013.

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I don’t do New Year’s Resolutions as I feel they tend to not really last so instead, I focus on goals. Some of my goals carry on from year to year until I can complete them, like Getting Out Of Debt, it feels like that one will last forever. But, I am making progress on that goal, my credit is great and my debt is very manageable. I will keep working on managing my debt, paying it down, moving forward and being more responsible with my money. I will, of course, keep running with the intention of running the Twin Cities Marathon in October. Baring any injuries, this will happen!

What I really really want to get a handle on is parenting my kids better. I had such a bad mommy moment yesterday during bath time, I wanted to cry after I apologized to my kids for losing it. ugh. It was horrible and frustrating and just not good. My poor kids deserve better than a screaming mommy monster when I’m feeling stressed. I take it out on them forgetting that they are just little kids with little kid brains and hearts and how scary it is when an adult and especially their mom, is yelling at them. So I guess I can call this goal the Stop Yelling At My Kids goal. (Unless they are in danger, then I’ll yell like crazy.) I feel like in this is something very important for me to get a handle on since it will effect the girls for the rest of their lives, how they parent, how they talk to themselves, how they interact with each other. No one deserves to be yelled at, yet we do it to kids all the time. They don’t deserve it either. They don’t deserve to be made to feel horrible or less than.

I want to live this year full of love and compassion. Here’s the a great 2014! *cheers*